There are moments throughout the day when I feel my heart breaking.  This ache in my chest is physical, over-riding.  I feel like I am caving in from all the grief that is laid upon me.  Why can't some things last forever?  Should I have been a better daughter?  Am I right to be this angry?  I want to scream, to listen to glass break, to cry alone in a dark room.  Why?!  Why does everyone I love seem to die too early?  Who is going to be next?

  Why does over-whelming sadness make me so angry?